New Life, New beginning...

You're probably thinking what does she mean new life, new beginning? It's been months since I've blogged and when I come back this is the title. Not of course my choice but life has taken me into a new direction more like a new journey. Everyone dreams of forever after, the white house with a picket fence, the fairy tale romance of our prince charming and well just to be loved. My fairy tale has come to an end after 18 years and three beautiful children. It's been two months since the words were engraved in my heart " I want to get a divorce, I haven't been in love with you for a really long time." Words no one wants to hear but words that open up your eyes to reality. To the fact that no matter how you viewed your life and no matter how hard you worked to not loose what you thought you had for the past 18 years, the fairy tale is over. What's made it harder is seeing the heartbreak in your children upon knowing mommy and daddy will no longer be together, that they'll now become part of a broken family. I never thought in my life that I would be here in this moment pouring out my heart about my failed marriage especially not getting divorced. 

All I could do was ask why, what happened, could I have done anything different? Questions that even today there are still no answers to. I mean what now, I wasn't given the choice to start over? I have finally come out of the days of crying, feeling helpless so heart broken and somewhat depressed. I somehow through all of the pain I found my inner strength to look into the mirror and say it's going to be alright. This isn't going to break you. I found my faith again in God. I'm not letting someone else define who I am. My kids are doing better of course counseling has helped and even though I needed it too, I chose to handle it on my own, well with God's help. I will say I've had a lot of support from family and friends. It doesn't mean I will not get counseling because I will, it's just I've come to realize I am excited now about this change in my life. The new life, the new beginning that's coming for me and my children. 

I stopped creating and crafting to throw myself into my family, to try to make things as normal as possible basically fight but I was the only one doing so. I miss crafting so much too! We all know it won't make any difference if only one is willing to fight. Times have been tough because even though we're separated we are still living together. Yeah crazy huh! But that's all going to change in a month. I found a new home for the kids and I to start over.  He's starting to panic a bit about finances trying to figure out what's next for him. While I won't say the pain is completely gone and there's still some anger but I won't feel sorry for my soon to be ex husband. He wanted this life, he chose this for me and the kids. I hope he finds what he wants during this time. I don't wish him any ill will because regardless we'll always be connected because of our kids. What kind of mother or person would I be if I let my kids see how cruel I am to their dad by being angry and hateful. I'm better than that and I won't let him turn me into someone I am not. 

Life is never easy, everyone struggles we just have to learn to take the blows and get back up and keep pressing forward. It's not easy for me to be this open and personal about my life. But it's helping me cope, it's empowering me to not give up even on love. This isn't the end for me, there is light at the end of this tunnel. My children and I will pull through. We'll find our happiness again in our new life, our new beginning.   
       

Sweet 16 and I'm still trying to recover!

Well this past weekend we celebrated my daughter's Sweet 16 and how in the world did that happen so quickly? I mean one minute she's my baby then walking, going to school and now a young woman! The time needs to slow down a bit because I'm a mess!!! Not only that but the next school year she'll be graduating high school. Wow! How many of us can remember the days we were sixteen or better yet graduating from high school? 

I have been planning this party since March so you would think I would of mentally prepared myself for this. But no, it's never easy for a parent to slowly let go of their precious child. I will say this party drained a lot out of me because my husband and I were able to handle all of it by ourselves. Yes you read right, all by ourselves! From the dress, cake, venue, entertainment, decorations, invitations, organizing of the food, jewelry, favors so you name it we handled it all.

 So you can imagine how proud we felt of being able to do this for our baby girl especially when it's customary in the latin culture to have sponsors. We tried believe me, we tried. Sometimes when you really know what you want and how you want things done, you take initiative to get it all done even if it's only you putting in all of the effort and money to make it a dream come true. Grant it we had last minute help, don't think we didn't have any kind of outside help. Let's just say it all helped out in the end make it come together. So the day comes and expectations are high. The excitement is in the air and before you know it we had some minor setbacks. But when is a big party always perfect. From a late escort to a band member missing as well as missing cables for set up and sound check to technical difficulties with the sound for our photo collage and to top it off we started one hour late. Yeah one hour late! What else could go wrong? Not only that but the added frustrations others were throwing on me because the set up for the music wasn't right and needed to be changed to people sitting on the supposed to be reserved tables (mind you the reserve tags were not on them until I made them place them on the tables) and not only a missing chair from my table but someone else sitting there that my husband and I couldn't even sit down with our children to finally relax after all the chaos and eat. So we sat with my daughters friend to keep her company. After all of the running around I did nothing relaxed me more than those two lovely shots of tequila my event coordinator hooked me up with. She saw how overwhelmed I was and made every effort possible to tell me everything was going to be okay, to relax and enjoy it! So I did. 

      

In the midst of all of the chaos it turned out beautifully because my daughter was smiling and treated like royalty on her special day. Thank goodness I won't be doing this again for another 7 years or so. In the meantime I'm still sore and trying to recover my strength from all of this especially since now another school year has started. I'm leaving on a good note of how proud I am of my baby girl and pictures for you to see just how beautiful it all turned out.

Not your typical fashionista and thrifty find

I'm not your regular fashionista nor do I get dolled up everyday but when I do I really like it! I also am learning to find some great items at a reasonable price or better yet at a Thrift shop. Those who know me will know how I tend to put on very little makeup to none at all nor do I take the time to fix myself or my hair. My teenager loves every moment she gets to give me a make over and she's also like me by not wearing makeup very much. I guess you can say I like the natural look.

Lately I like to experiment with colors especially these nice dark ones but with winter almost over I need to get into the Spring colors which should be fun because of the neutral colors.

I also need to try new hair do's but I really want to cut my hair and just start new. Having thin wavy/curly hair doesn't give me much t work with.  

So let me show you the great pair of boots my daughter found at a Thrift store no less and the price wait for it....$15.99!!! Even though winter is almost over these suede brown boots were a great find and both my teenager and I can wear them. Although it's a whole size bigger for the both of us. We'll definitely put them to use.

I think it's about time I started working on me by primping myself every chance I can get. The hubby sure likes it when I do. I've found so many great make up ideas on Pinterest especially Instagram. So I'm ready to apply what I learn.

Another school year and I'm already exhausted.....

Wow time flies doesn't it? It was summer and now it's the start of another school year. It's only going on day 4 for my kids but yesterday I swear I felt like I got hit by a car or something. I was exhausted like when you clean the house all day and feet hurting type of exhaustion. I even napped. I rarely ever nap at that. And it's only been the first week. But I am thankful my kids are enjoying their new schools in a new district. It seems to be a never-ending change for my kids from moving to different homes,cities recently and now again to changing schools in a new district. You know how you as a parent are also scared for them because of the new changes but deep down you know your kids will pull through especially because mine have done it almost all of their young lives. My family has been through our share of craziness over the past 3 years but my kids strength surprises me with everyday. Their stress levels came to their worst recently which made us move back home to Dallas but only to be in a new city we've never been to before. Another new district in less than a year but a better one than they've been accustomed to at that. Here is the first day of school pictures I took of them and only one wasn't so happy in returning which you'll be able to tell from their facial expressions.

 
Another big change this time around all 3 of them are on their own each one in a different school. I was hesitant with my son starting Middle School only because he's just as emotional as his mother but even though we had a scare on the first day of school for him (he got off on the wrong exit from his school bus but only was two streets down thank goodness) he's been happy with the new school so far. What a relief that was! Now my high school-er had a weird kind of first day. I say weird because it's the only nice way to word it. Keep in mind we moved back to Dallas from South Texas, the poorest part to be exact and coming into a new district and especially a newly built school (only going on it's second year) which seems pretty extravagant (again wording it nicely) was what made her feel so out of place and well weird. Although now she's enjoying it again another sigh of relief for me. My youngest loves it. She adjusts very quickly to her  new surrounding so I knew with her I'd have no problem. So back to how exhausted I was I guess because I wake up very early (5:45 am to be exact) to get my girls ready because my oldest has early morning band practice and my youngest has to leave early due to her ride then it's onto waking up my son after 7 am. This is over course after I've already made my girls lunches, help my youngest with getting dressed (because she always wants mommy to help with something), my coffee then finally my son's lunch. Then it's off the feeding myself and my husband, the dogs and off to my household chores. Then it's off to pick up my youngest and her cousin (walking in the summer heat no less) so maybe just maybe that all explains my exhaustion huh?
Either way I love it. Yeah I may be tired and going out of my mind but I love being a mom. I am way to hands on to not enjoy it. I am more than hands on, I am in mom mode 24/7. I hope the days get a bit better and slightly easier but then again really Gabby? I have 3 kids and one is in band, it'll never get any easier. So I am going to enjoy it no matter how exhausted I am.

GIVEAWAY WINNER!!!!

Congratulations to Heather Budler-Ronzoni for winning the free giveaway! Please email me your address at garzacreations5@gmail.com to send you your prize. You have 24 hours to claim your prize. Yay!! Thanks everyone who participated. 

New GiveAway!

It's that time again for a new Giveaway! I think you'll love the items that are up for grabs especially if you have a little girl. The giveaway starts today 1/27/13 and this now ends on Monday 2/4/13 at midnight. To sign up / be entered please leave a comment below stating " I Want To Win!" and you'll be entered in the drawing. If you're on Facebook here's the link to my Facebook fan page so you can follow me and see updates of all the new items and upcoming sales.
 https://www.facebook.com/Garza.Creations  

Here are the cute items you could win!
Red Damascus Pattern Pettiskirt & matching hair bow
Pettiskirt size: (adjustable waist) fits newborn up to 3 yrs old

Be sure to share this post with your friends and don't forget to follow leave your comment below. The winner will be selected by random.org and announced on Tuesday 2/5/13. Once the winner has been announced you'll have 24 hours to respond to claim the prize or it will passed on to another winner. Good luck everyone!!

Yummy new recipe!!

 
Hello everyone! I have promised my Facebook fans recently a recipe I tried and I have the link ready to share with you. Sorry it took me awhile to get it out to you but it's been pretty busy here.
I tried this recipe when I saw it on The Rachel Ray Show and thought I could make that. So I did but I made it with half the ingredients listed on the recipe because it was only for the hubby & I.
It came out great and so delicious. It's a based on a Mexican traditional dish with fried tortillas with eggs known as Migas, but to make it this way made it even have a lot of flavor. Although I wouldn't really say this is a Mexican dish because it's not but it's very good to try.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Feel free to comment below or send me pictures of your dish.                                            

 

I'm posting a photo of mine so you can see the difference on how I made it.








http://www.rachaelrayshow.com/food/recipes/tex-mex-frittata-layer-cake/